Sun and Moon

It's CT week ! Which means my day is filled with nothing but sleep, eat and mostly.. studying. During exam period usually I'll gain some weight because I sort of believe that my brain need glucose to function. Wonder if it is just an excuse.. (though it's scientifically proven). So yeah, because of that.. I've been munching honey star at least 2x daily. I think I eat honey star more than I eat rice. I'll get diabetes really soon... =__=

Well.. Actually CT week isn't so bad.. I only have 2 papers left. One on Thursday and one on Friday. They should be pretty manageable if I don't do any careless mistake like how I did in Monday's paper. Out of ten papers, usually only one time I will come out feeling totally good about myself. Yes, I do set a real high expectation of myself. It is good and bad at the same time. On one side, expectation motivates me to work harder. But on the other side, it gives me stress and pressure.. and worst.. disappointment, when I could not meet the standard despite the amount of efforts I've put in.

Enough rambling about CT and all the stressful thing..

Moving on.. I have been pretty obsessed with this song titled 'Sun and Moon'. It is actually a song from a broadway musical Miss Saigon. Originally sung by Simon Bowman and Lea Salonga. The play is basically about a doomed love story between American GI and a Vietnamese bar girl. It kinda reminds me of the Memoirs of a Geisha, but based on the synopsis in Wikipedia, it resembles Madame Butterfly more. If I'm not wrong Madame Butterfly was played in the cinema a couple of months ago. Interesting fact ; Miss Saigon is the 11th longest-running broadway. It was started in 1991 and closed in 2001. 

If you guys realised, Lea Salonga does not sound like a Caucasian or Eurasian name.. it is because she is actually a Filipino. She is a super duper talented woman who played in another broadway musical Les Miserables and the voice behind Disney Princess Mulan and Jasmine. She is pretty old now, but her voice still sounds like how it was 20 years ago. Curious ? click on the play button !

This was taken in 1989 when she was only 17 I guess

And this one is when she's 19 

She really grew up in broadway ><

I shall end my post here.. It's 2:22 am and I shall wake up early tomorrow to study and complete some stuffs. One random photo 

For those who are having CT like me, press on for a couple of more days okay :)

Good night lovelies <3

"You are sunlight and I moon, joined by the God's of fortune..."

Alignment

It's so funny to find out that apparently someone in my family has the same 'disease' as me. A perfectionist who can't stand when things are not aligned together properly. That's why we spend our nights and early morning doing presentation.. spending hours aligning every single flowchart. Sounds sick actually, but well when one takes so much pride in her work, she will put that much effort to make everything looks perfectly flawless.

Oh well , now that I come to think of it, I have not been updating my blog for quite sometime.. I am drowned in school work and projects and the upcoming common test. It is not easy to juggle four things together.. studies, social life, dance, family.. and probably five if I include sleep inside. Well, most of the time I sacrifice sleep and social life. It is really not easy, year 2 is no joke. Having to so say that, everything has been working pretty well. I didn't do extremely great in some quiz, but I guess I have to learn to appreciate my own hard work.

Emotion wise, it's been like a roller coaster ride. Yesterday was a really great day.. spent the whole afternoon with the Ambassador family. It was FUN and the babies are adorable :)  hehe.. It was a pity that I could not join them for lunch because of a family event at home. Yeah, I had an Indon Food Fest yesterday. The food was great, the dessert was even better. This Ben&Jerry's ice cream flavour 'everything but...' really suprised me with all the goodness of chocolates inside.. then I had a mango and passion fruit Haagen Daz which is unfortunately below my expectation. Haagen Daz Strawberry Sorbet tastes much better. Still have a bag of profiteroles in the fridge.. been munching them since this morning. I'll turn into a fat pig pretty soon.. MUST RESIST. I just hope my cousin would come to the house and take it away.. which he clearly wouldn't do because he would not be able to control himself if he is to have it in his fridge. Okay, I realise that when it comes to food I can talk on and on and on..

I know it's not a long post.. I don't get to spend much time on blog or tumblr anymore.. but I try to update my blog at least once a week, so I won't forget about it like how it used to be for the past 2 years.. :3

Have a beautiful evening lovelies <3
I really look forward to the end of CT and till then wish me good luck !

Me and Janice during Ambassador Inauguration day 

26/5/2012

The thick skin Lady

Maggie and Mee ( Clarissa's pun :D )

The Hungry Man

Suddenly remember the analogy that I heard from someone before.

It was something like..

'....It's like the hungry man eating a bowl of noodle. At the start, he was very hungry.. so he enjoyed eating his noodle so much. But as he continued, he began to feel full.. so he slowed down. Finally, he stopped eating his noodle, leaving the leftover behind...'

I forget the precise saying.. but it's something along that line. 

I guess some people just leave a bigger footprint in your life. 

But no matter what, the past is still the past. 

It doesn't belong in your present nor your future.

Sometimes it sucks to be the leftover noodle...

But we have to learn to forgive,

so that we can forget

and move on with our life

you're moving backwards. I am not.

"I tried too hard sometimes"

Busy Week :{

Again, this week has been really  hectic for me. Looking back, I had 2 reports to hand in and some tutorials to be done. Okay, maybe it doesn't sound a lot.. but making a report isn't an easy thing to do. Lots and lots of thinking and research required. Spent most days staying up till late at night to complete all these assignments. I am really really sleep deprived.

Despite the stress that I got from lecturers, I kinda enjoyed my days at school for the past week. My twinnie, Mr D and the Bouncers are people who made my day everyday. They kept me away from negative thoughts.. from thinking too much about other things. I did have some mood swings plus a couple of 'flared up' situations though.. Got pretty mad during practicals and scolded someone in his face. I guess that's one bad thing about me, when I'm tired and stressed, I tend to be too straight forward in my words and it could get really annoying. I do feel bad and usually I'll apologise to that person straight away. No one like to be treated that way, right?

So well.. I am spending another Sunday morning at home. Reading my Advance Math lecture notes. A quiz is coming up next Tuesday. Followed by another quiz on Wednesday and Friday. In total I'll be having 4 quiz next week and a project to be completed. I'm sure I would have been zombified by next Sunday. Apparently, being a second year student isn't easy at all yo. Just gotta pressed on and work a little harder for this semester. I have lots of things on my plate, but slowly I'll eat them up one by one. KR mentioned I'll look much older if I don't have enough sleep though.. but it's okay.. so long as I get good grades :)

OMG.. I really NEED to watch the avengers again.. :(

A sneak peak of what I did last week :)

Have a great Sunday lovelies ♥

"I wish I could read what's in your mind before you sleep.."

Sunday

This week has been a pretty long one for me. Many people actually mentioned that I looked very tired. Well, guess even make ups couldn't cover that up.  

I have to say it was all because of the irregular sleeping time for the past few days. And of course I was just exhausted inside out. The constant internal conflict totally drained my energy. There is always a contrary between what is right and what I want to do. Eventually I have to do what people think is right for me to do. Maybe they are right, but why the heart refused to understand?

I always envy those people who have the courage to pursue their dreams. Regardless of what people think, regardless of how many rejections, failures and obstacles they have to face. They are brave enough to be different. Nowadays, most people are just being mainstream. In fact, I am one of them too. I am living a present that grants me a future. But what if things go wrong somewhere in the middle ? It's really scary to think of that. To think that all the sacrifices would bring me no where. 

Dad said, I have to believe in God. That everything happens for a reason and it is all part of God's plan. Dad said I might not see it now, but later in the future I'll be thankful for what has happened. 

I really look forward to that day to come.. 

I just need a little faith.. I know He would never leave me.

I am just really grateful to be surrounded by people who love me. Friends and family.. people who bother to drop a message to ask me about my day. People who stick by my side through thick and thin. People who listen to my stories, who constantly ensure me that everything would get better. If I could I would list your names down.. but I believe you know who you are. 

I am proud to close the week with a smile on my face. I guess, it takes time for me to understand the reason behind certain things.. but for now, I choose to let God guides me. I choose to believe in Him. Slowly I am starting to understand and to accept. 

I am going for something interesting this evening.. :)
Really look forward to it. Oh and I'll be watching The Avengers too..
Have a great Sunday people
<3

The Princess and the Queen

back row- Jeremy, Drew, Jeremy2
front row- Hui Juan, Queeness, me

Yesterday I went to Queeness's 18th birthday party. Met a couple of old friends and surprisingly after one and a half year I've forgotten some of their names. I felt devastatingly old and senile. Jeremy was my chaperone for the day and later on we met his friend who is apparently the photographer of the day.

Me and J bought a bag from Charles and Keith as a present. I totally LOVE the bag because it can be used inside out, how COOL is that ?! and it's a tote bag, so you can just dump everything inside when rushing for class. The orange colour was pretty too.. and the leather (although it's synthetic) looks pretty nice. Too bad I didn't take a picture of it.

The party was actually a good catch up with my fellow Boonlayians. Hui Juan was there. It's been so long since the last time we met. Q and her often arrange for an outing or picnic, but me, being the superly busy girl.. always can't make it. So I guess coming to Q's party is a form of apology too in one way or another. I really hope one day we can have a girl's day out and do something fun like a picnic at Marrina Barrage or something and of course there will be lots and lots of camwhore-ing sessions :)

So yeah.. J, me and his friend happened to reach the location pretty early. Q and other guests had not reached yet. Just nice in front of the function room there is a swimming pool with a plateau like thing in the middle of it. It was a beautiful spot to take photos and moreover, the sun was setting. So Drew (the photographer) took a couple of shoots for me. They turns out real nice.. the sunset gave this flare effect which looks real pretty on the photos. What could be better than getting free shoots from experienced photographer.. HEHE.

Overall the party was fun, the food was great (especially the eclairs) and I made a new friend. 

So it was a happy day..

Below here are the photos that Drew took for me and some group shots during the party.. enjoy people :)

My Favourite :)

Love this one too <3

Just close your eyes..
The sun is going down
You'll be alright..
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light..
You and I'll be safe and sound...

I'll be alright

Dear you,
Who cry before you sleep
Who lose faith in people around you
Who lose faith in yourself
Who lose faith in God
Who hopelessly feel lonely
and rejected


You need to know that...

We should let things fall apart so better things could come...
We learn through mistakes, through painful experience.. through hard decisions...
As we grow up, we learn to let go, to accept, to sacrifice
Things that are precious.. things that we value deeply
For something that might not benefit ourselves
But for something that is  merely right to do

Sure enough,

Little did we know why should we do that
Cos what it brings it's just the constant pain
That pierce your chest deep down
That makes you curl yourself before you sleep
And cry before your hopeless dream

But again,

It's the right thing to do
and what we need.. is just a little faith
That things would be alright
Because like a roller coaster ride
We'll need to go through the downs
before the ups..
and in life, we'll need to go through the pain
before we could look back and say..
'We've grown so much since that day'

and one day..
you'll be proud of yourself
because you've survived the hard times
and you're stronger, wiser and better than you could ever be

The Journey

'Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough'

"There is a sense of achievement, when you can finally start to look at something from a different angle, which makes you understand more about the bigger picture. It takes maturity and great courage, to let go of something so dearly to you.. for the good of people around you and for the sake of your future. It is as if you have the power to control your dream, but then you choose to wake up from a beautiful dream because you realise that afterall you have to live in reality. It sucks when it first hits you. That sometimes no matter how much you 'dream' about something and how much you fight for it, certain things are not meant to happen."

So today is 11th.. just 2 days before the big day. This morning I went to town with my relatives. We went to ION, Tangs Plaza and Paragon. They have never been to Orchard Road before, so it was quite an experience :) They said the area where I live is so quiet and Orchard is just the total opposite. I explained to them that in Singapore everything is clustered and of course town area is the busiest among all. They took the MRT for the first time too, and told me how in Holland the seats are arranged differently. They are arranged like the seats in a small plane, with an aisle in the middle. So the people are facing the head of the train ( do you get what I mean ? I hope you do ). Well, with such an arrangement not many people can actually stand up because there isn't much space left. What's so cool about the Metro ( yes.. they call it a Metro instead of MRT ) is that there is a special section for people with bicycle. In Singapore, only folded bicycles are allowed and come on.... folded bicycle is just soo.. rare. Besides that, the Metro can take them to Paris in just 3 hours time ! To think of it, 3 hours are like 2 Singapores away. HAHA. The Metro can also take them to London.. How cool is that !! I wish Singapore extends its MRT to Jakarta so that I can go back anytime I want with just one 'tap'. *dream on* I am so looking forward to travel to Europe once I have a stable job and earn my own money. As for now, I shall be satisfied with an MRT that could bring me around the big Singapore :)

-I tried to find the metro picture online but couln't find a nice one :< -

I am going to do something fun tomorrow and I am really looking forward to it..

Maybe I shall not spoil it here.. :)

But it's definitely something that I've never done before..

And I hope it turns out nice

Goodnight beautiful people and may the odds be ever in your favor

Peterpan

It's time to grow up and face the world.


I've been acting like a small kid for the past few days..
I guess it's time to change, for the better..


<3

And the countdown begins

I was awaken again at 2am last night. It was as if someone woke me up from my sleep for the past 3 nights. I checked my phone.. nothing. I never expect anything to begin with.

The sky looks pretty bright today. Hope it's not gonna rain anytime soon. Today the crew is going to have a dance practice at 12pm. Unfortunately I will have to leave by 2 because of the stupid aircon appointment. I've asked my cousin to drop by today for a tuition session. Well, maybe it is not entirely a 'tuition' but more like me helping him with his work. Probably I should get some gummy bears to keep him going later. He's not a little kid anymore, but sure his love for candies never grows out of him.


The family is back in town. Erwin got me a concert DVD of Adele Live at The Royal Albert Hall. I'm so touched that he remembered to get me something from Jakarta. Thanks Erwin :) They brought back lots and lots of food. Baguette, crackers, bika ambon, all sorts of things.. I shall not indulge myself too much though. Must keep in shape. Wish me a better day today..

I let it fall, my heart 
And as it fell, you rose to claim it 
It was dark and I was over 
Until you kissed my lips and you save me 
My hands, they're strong 
But my knees were far too weak 
To stand in your arms, without falling to your feet

Rain Flower

It has been raining for the past few days. This afternoon was a huge one. The thunder and wind just went crazy. I hate thunder. It reminds me of bad things, bad times.


So yeah, the day hasn't been going that well for me. Today is Easter, but I missed the Easter Mass because I decided to woke up at 9.30am and after all the housework it was already 12 plus. The mass should be at 11am. I remember how Easter used to be such a feast back when I was in primary school. There would be an egg designing competition and egg hunting of course. I was good in art, but I guess egg wasn't the right canvas.. I suck at drawing on egg. LOL. Those were good times...


I spent my day at home today.. staring at the greyish sky. Occasionally went downstairs and search for food in the fridge. Did the housework little by little. Oh yea, Granny's going back to Singapore today. Probably she'll be back home at around 8.30 or 9pm. When she's away with my relatives, I stay at home with my Uncle. I guess the only thing I enjoy about having 2 people at home is the fact that no one will step on the clean floor, so I won't have to sweep or mop so often. What a reason, I know..


I was all emotional today.. mood swing, tissue paper still on my bed. I guess my room is the messiest part of the house right now. I tried to have a nap earlier, but couldn't. So I decided to do my nails. Been so long since the last time I did a nice one. Yb and Hs gave me this set of nail polish as birthday present and they are really pretty. I won't spend my money on expensive nail polish, so I was totally exhilarated to receive it. As for the stickers on my nails, they are also birthday present from my girls back in hometown. Apparently I am such a lucky girl, to have beautiful people around me.. who love me and know me well. Count your blessings, Nas.


Here is the final product after careful polishing and pasting...
I am so satisfied with the result, it looks like some wedding nails :)



And here are things that I used




Have a wonderful Easter everyone..
and don't forget to bring your umbrella out

Start A Fresh

How could it be, 2 people liking nothing in common but each other could end up together ?

I guess they would never.. they are just a world apart. Like black and white. Like the day and night. They'll never get to be together.


It was like walking on the beach. A beautiful one. You were playing with the sand. Then, you started to want more and get into the water. You go deeper and you like it. You enjoy it for a moment, ignoring all the dangers. Then, before you know it, you get drowned. Helpless, alone, in the sea of sadness. You have no one to blame but yourself, because it was a choice afterall.


If you talk to a girl, she would believe in a fairytale, that with love everything would turn out fine. I wish I could be one who never grows up. I thought it was fine, so long as there is happiness. So long as we both are contented, with simple things that we did. With silly jokes that we made. I wish we could live in an ideal world, where not a thing could stand in between us. How could it be, 2 humans, one wall, and we are separated.. forever. We are not even given the chance to choose.. How fair the world could be?


I wish that day never exist. So we could keep it locked inside, things that we have for each other. Things that I had for you. You made me believe, and then you threw me down to the ground. It wasn't that high, but still pain is inevitable.. remember ? you would say suffering is optional. Agree. But not everyone could do that.. for some, pain just comes with suffering.


I understand what we did was just building a door through the wall. I should have known that the wall is always there, dividing us in 2 different worlds. We are so different, in every way possible, just why things happened ? I wonder.


I guess, we are just unfortunate...


In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises be us against the world
And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you are the one that got away
The one that got a way

Comeback

Oh well well well...
I am quite surprised to actually start a post again after what seems like forever. If you don't know yet, I can get easily bored with things like books, blogs and stuffs related to language and writing. I am just not a language person. I often tell others that maths is my language. I am way better with numbers and equations.

OKAY ! So today is April 5th, 12.35 am. I am sitting on my cousin's bed *which becomes my temporary bed till the next 2 weeks*, trying to get myself asleep yet I couldn't. Life has been pretty great lately. My crew, Crypto Knights has been working super hard for our 'debut'.. hope everything will go according to plan. Still thinking hard over the right costumes and cleaning several parts of the whole performance. Honestly I was really happy to know that at least the 'in charge' was satisfied with what we brought onto the table. We should not be complacent though.. Like what Amanda said, we are dancers so we know what we expect to see in a show.. and I guess we haven't reached the standard yet, especially on details and showmanship. There are lots of things to work on !




Besides that, I had a really nice outing yesterday. Went to City Hall and then finally walk to Plaza Sing to catch Hunger Games. Overall, I think the movie is pretty good though I must say it wasn't fantastic. I guess the trailer reveals too much ? Besides that I don't like how they started it off with half the fighters die in the first 20 seconds of the battle *spoiler*. Oh and by the way, I find the name Katniss Everdeen really unique. It has a very vintage-ish feeling somehow.. Besides that Liam Hemsworth was stunning in the movie, He didn't appear in many parts, but the fact that he was able to leave such an impression is really something to take note of !

Okay now I shall go to sleep and...

I'll try to be more loyal to my blog this time round~


:)
GOOD NIGHT <3