This week has been a pretty long one for me. Many people actually mentioned that I looked very tired. Well, guess even make ups couldn't cover that up.
I have to say it was all because of the irregular sleeping time for the past few days. And of course I was just exhausted inside out. The constant internal conflict totally drained my energy. There is always a contrary between what is right and what I want to do. Eventually I have to do what people think is right for me to do. Maybe they are right, but why the heart refused to understand?
I always envy those people who have the courage to pursue their dreams. Regardless of what people think, regardless of how many rejections, failures and obstacles they have to face. They are brave enough to be different. Nowadays, most people are just being mainstream. In fact, I am one of them too. I am living a present that grants me a future. But what if things go wrong somewhere in the middle ? It's really scary to think of that. To think that all the sacrifices would bring me no where.
Dad said, I have to believe in God. That everything happens for a reason and it is all part of God's plan. Dad said I might not see it now, but later in the future I'll be thankful for what has happened.
I really look forward to that day to come..
I just need a little faith.. I know He would never leave me.
I am just really grateful to be surrounded by people who love me. Friends and family.. people who bother to drop a message to ask me about my day. People who stick by my side through thick and thin. People who listen to my stories, who constantly ensure me that everything would get better. If I could I would list your names down.. but I believe you know who you are.
I am proud to close the week with a smile on my face. I guess, it takes time for me to understand the reason behind certain things.. but for now, I choose to let God guides me. I choose to believe in Him. Slowly I am starting to understand and to accept.
I am going for something interesting this evening.. :)
Really look forward to it. Oh and I'll be watching The Avengers too..
Have a great Sunday people
<3
