Alignment

It's so funny to find out that apparently someone in my family has the same 'disease' as me. A perfectionist who can't stand when things are not aligned together properly. That's why we spend our nights and early morning doing presentation.. spending hours aligning every single flowchart. Sounds sick actually, but well when one takes so much pride in her work, she will put that much effort to make everything looks perfectly flawless.

Oh well , now that I come to think of it, I have not been updating my blog for quite sometime.. I am drowned in school work and projects and the upcoming common test. It is not easy to juggle four things together.. studies, social life, dance, family.. and probably five if I include sleep inside. Well, most of the time I sacrifice sleep and social life. It is really not easy, year 2 is no joke. Having to so say that, everything has been working pretty well. I didn't do extremely great in some quiz, but I guess I have to learn to appreciate my own hard work.

Emotion wise, it's been like a roller coaster ride. Yesterday was a really great day.. spent the whole afternoon with the Ambassador family. It was FUN and the babies are adorable :)  hehe.. It was a pity that I could not join them for lunch because of a family event at home. Yeah, I had an Indon Food Fest yesterday. The food was great, the dessert was even better. This Ben&Jerry's ice cream flavour 'everything but...' really suprised me with all the goodness of chocolates inside.. then I had a mango and passion fruit Haagen Daz which is unfortunately below my expectation. Haagen Daz Strawberry Sorbet tastes much better. Still have a bag of profiteroles in the fridge.. been munching them since this morning. I'll turn into a fat pig pretty soon.. MUST RESIST. I just hope my cousin would come to the house and take it away.. which he clearly wouldn't do because he would not be able to control himself if he is to have it in his fridge. Okay, I realise that when it comes to food I can talk on and on and on..

I know it's not a long post.. I don't get to spend much time on blog or tumblr anymore.. but I try to update my blog at least once a week, so I won't forget about it like how it used to be for the past 2 years.. :3

Have a beautiful evening lovelies <3
I really look forward to the end of CT and till then wish me good luck !

Me and Janice during Ambassador Inauguration day 

26/5/2012

The thick skin Lady

Maggie and Mee ( Clarissa's pun :D )

The Hungry Man

Suddenly remember the analogy that I heard from someone before.

It was something like..

'....It's like the hungry man eating a bowl of noodle. At the start, he was very hungry.. so he enjoyed eating his noodle so much. But as he continued, he began to feel full.. so he slowed down. Finally, he stopped eating his noodle, leaving the leftover behind...'

I forget the precise saying.. but it's something along that line. 

I guess some people just leave a bigger footprint in your life. 

But no matter what, the past is still the past. 

It doesn't belong in your present nor your future.

Sometimes it sucks to be the leftover noodle...

But we have to learn to forgive,

so that we can forget

and move on with our life

you're moving backwards. I am not.

"I tried too hard sometimes"

Busy Week :{

Again, this week has been really  hectic for me. Looking back, I had 2 reports to hand in and some tutorials to be done. Okay, maybe it doesn't sound a lot.. but making a report isn't an easy thing to do. Lots and lots of thinking and research required. Spent most days staying up till late at night to complete all these assignments. I am really really sleep deprived.

Despite the stress that I got from lecturers, I kinda enjoyed my days at school for the past week. My twinnie, Mr D and the Bouncers are people who made my day everyday. They kept me away from negative thoughts.. from thinking too much about other things. I did have some mood swings plus a couple of 'flared up' situations though.. Got pretty mad during practicals and scolded someone in his face. I guess that's one bad thing about me, when I'm tired and stressed, I tend to be too straight forward in my words and it could get really annoying. I do feel bad and usually I'll apologise to that person straight away. No one like to be treated that way, right?

So well.. I am spending another Sunday morning at home. Reading my Advance Math lecture notes. A quiz is coming up next Tuesday. Followed by another quiz on Wednesday and Friday. In total I'll be having 4 quiz next week and a project to be completed. I'm sure I would have been zombified by next Sunday. Apparently, being a second year student isn't easy at all yo. Just gotta pressed on and work a little harder for this semester. I have lots of things on my plate, but slowly I'll eat them up one by one. KR mentioned I'll look much older if I don't have enough sleep though.. but it's okay.. so long as I get good grades :)

OMG.. I really NEED to watch the avengers again.. :(

A sneak peak of what I did last week :)

Have a great Sunday lovelies ♥

"I wish I could read what's in your mind before you sleep.."

Sunday

This week has been a pretty long one for me. Many people actually mentioned that I looked very tired. Well, guess even make ups couldn't cover that up.  

I have to say it was all because of the irregular sleeping time for the past few days. And of course I was just exhausted inside out. The constant internal conflict totally drained my energy. There is always a contrary between what is right and what I want to do. Eventually I have to do what people think is right for me to do. Maybe they are right, but why the heart refused to understand?

I always envy those people who have the courage to pursue their dreams. Regardless of what people think, regardless of how many rejections, failures and obstacles they have to face. They are brave enough to be different. Nowadays, most people are just being mainstream. In fact, I am one of them too. I am living a present that grants me a future. But what if things go wrong somewhere in the middle ? It's really scary to think of that. To think that all the sacrifices would bring me no where. 

Dad said, I have to believe in God. That everything happens for a reason and it is all part of God's plan. Dad said I might not see it now, but later in the future I'll be thankful for what has happened. 

I really look forward to that day to come.. 

I just need a little faith.. I know He would never leave me.

I am just really grateful to be surrounded by people who love me. Friends and family.. people who bother to drop a message to ask me about my day. People who stick by my side through thick and thin. People who listen to my stories, who constantly ensure me that everything would get better. If I could I would list your names down.. but I believe you know who you are. 

I am proud to close the week with a smile on my face. I guess, it takes time for me to understand the reason behind certain things.. but for now, I choose to let God guides me. I choose to believe in Him. Slowly I am starting to understand and to accept. 

I am going for something interesting this evening.. :)
Really look forward to it. Oh and I'll be watching The Avengers too..
Have a great Sunday people
<3