Sunday

This week has been a pretty long one for me. Many people actually mentioned that I looked very tired. Well, guess even make ups couldn't cover that up.  

I have to say it was all because of the irregular sleeping time for the past few days. And of course I was just exhausted inside out. The constant internal conflict totally drained my energy. There is always a contrary between what is right and what I want to do. Eventually I have to do what people think is right for me to do. Maybe they are right, but why the heart refused to understand?

I always envy those people who have the courage to pursue their dreams. Regardless of what people think, regardless of how many rejections, failures and obstacles they have to face. They are brave enough to be different. Nowadays, most people are just being mainstream. In fact, I am one of them too. I am living a present that grants me a future. But what if things go wrong somewhere in the middle ? It's really scary to think of that. To think that all the sacrifices would bring me no where. 

Dad said, I have to believe in God. That everything happens for a reason and it is all part of God's plan. Dad said I might not see it now, but later in the future I'll be thankful for what has happened. 

I really look forward to that day to come.. 

I just need a little faith.. I know He would never leave me.

I am just really grateful to be surrounded by people who love me. Friends and family.. people who bother to drop a message to ask me about my day. People who stick by my side through thick and thin. People who listen to my stories, who constantly ensure me that everything would get better. If I could I would list your names down.. but I believe you know who you are. 

I am proud to close the week with a smile on my face. I guess, it takes time for me to understand the reason behind certain things.. but for now, I choose to let God guides me. I choose to believe in Him. Slowly I am starting to understand and to accept. 

I am going for something interesting this evening.. :)
Really look forward to it. Oh and I'll be watching The Avengers too..
Have a great Sunday people
<3

The Princess and the Queen

back row- Jeremy, Drew, Jeremy2
front row- Hui Juan, Queeness, me

Yesterday I went to Queeness's 18th birthday party. Met a couple of old friends and surprisingly after one and a half year I've forgotten some of their names. I felt devastatingly old and senile. Jeremy was my chaperone for the day and later on we met his friend who is apparently the photographer of the day.

Me and J bought a bag from Charles and Keith as a present. I totally LOVE the bag because it can be used inside out, how COOL is that ?! and it's a tote bag, so you can just dump everything inside when rushing for class. The orange colour was pretty too.. and the leather (although it's synthetic) looks pretty nice. Too bad I didn't take a picture of it.

The party was actually a good catch up with my fellow Boonlayians. Hui Juan was there. It's been so long since the last time we met. Q and her often arrange for an outing or picnic, but me, being the superly busy girl.. always can't make it. So I guess coming to Q's party is a form of apology too in one way or another. I really hope one day we can have a girl's day out and do something fun like a picnic at Marrina Barrage or something and of course there will be lots and lots of camwhore-ing sessions :)

So yeah.. J, me and his friend happened to reach the location pretty early. Q and other guests had not reached yet. Just nice in front of the function room there is a swimming pool with a plateau like thing in the middle of it. It was a beautiful spot to take photos and moreover, the sun was setting. So Drew (the photographer) took a couple of shoots for me. They turns out real nice.. the sunset gave this flare effect which looks real pretty on the photos. What could be better than getting free shoots from experienced photographer.. HEHE.

Overall the party was fun, the food was great (especially the eclairs) and I made a new friend. 

So it was a happy day..

Below here are the photos that Drew took for me and some group shots during the party.. enjoy people :)

My Favourite :)

Love this one too <3

Just close your eyes..
The sun is going down
You'll be alright..
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light..
You and I'll be safe and sound...

I'll be alright

Dear you,
Who cry before you sleep
Who lose faith in people around you
Who lose faith in yourself
Who lose faith in God
Who hopelessly feel lonely
and rejected


You need to know that...

We should let things fall apart so better things could come...
We learn through mistakes, through painful experience.. through hard decisions...
As we grow up, we learn to let go, to accept, to sacrifice
Things that are precious.. things that we value deeply
For something that might not benefit ourselves
But for something that is  merely right to do

Sure enough,

Little did we know why should we do that
Cos what it brings it's just the constant pain
That pierce your chest deep down
That makes you curl yourself before you sleep
And cry before your hopeless dream

But again,

It's the right thing to do
and what we need.. is just a little faith
That things would be alright
Because like a roller coaster ride
We'll need to go through the downs
before the ups..
and in life, we'll need to go through the pain
before we could look back and say..
'We've grown so much since that day'

and one day..
you'll be proud of yourself
because you've survived the hard times
and you're stronger, wiser and better than you could ever be

The Journey

'Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough'

"There is a sense of achievement, when you can finally start to look at something from a different angle, which makes you understand more about the bigger picture. It takes maturity and great courage, to let go of something so dearly to you.. for the good of people around you and for the sake of your future. It is as if you have the power to control your dream, but then you choose to wake up from a beautiful dream because you realise that afterall you have to live in reality. It sucks when it first hits you. That sometimes no matter how much you 'dream' about something and how much you fight for it, certain things are not meant to happen."

So today is 11th.. just 2 days before the big day. This morning I went to town with my relatives. We went to ION, Tangs Plaza and Paragon. They have never been to Orchard Road before, so it was quite an experience :) They said the area where I live is so quiet and Orchard is just the total opposite. I explained to them that in Singapore everything is clustered and of course town area is the busiest among all. They took the MRT for the first time too, and told me how in Holland the seats are arranged differently. They are arranged like the seats in a small plane, with an aisle in the middle. So the people are facing the head of the train ( do you get what I mean ? I hope you do ). Well, with such an arrangement not many people can actually stand up because there isn't much space left. What's so cool about the Metro ( yes.. they call it a Metro instead of MRT ) is that there is a special section for people with bicycle. In Singapore, only folded bicycles are allowed and come on.... folded bicycle is just soo.. rare. Besides that, the Metro can take them to Paris in just 3 hours time ! To think of it, 3 hours are like 2 Singapores away. HAHA. The Metro can also take them to London.. How cool is that !! I wish Singapore extends its MRT to Jakarta so that I can go back anytime I want with just one 'tap'. *dream on* I am so looking forward to travel to Europe once I have a stable job and earn my own money. As for now, I shall be satisfied with an MRT that could bring me around the big Singapore :)

-I tried to find the metro picture online but couln't find a nice one :< -

I am going to do something fun tomorrow and I am really looking forward to it..

Maybe I shall not spoil it here.. :)

But it's definitely something that I've never done before..

And I hope it turns out nice

Goodnight beautiful people and may the odds be ever in your favor

Peterpan

It's time to grow up and face the world.


I've been acting like a small kid for the past few days..
I guess it's time to change, for the better..


<3

And the countdown begins

I was awaken again at 2am last night. It was as if someone woke me up from my sleep for the past 3 nights. I checked my phone.. nothing. I never expect anything to begin with.

The sky looks pretty bright today. Hope it's not gonna rain anytime soon. Today the crew is going to have a dance practice at 12pm. Unfortunately I will have to leave by 2 because of the stupid aircon appointment. I've asked my cousin to drop by today for a tuition session. Well, maybe it is not entirely a 'tuition' but more like me helping him with his work. Probably I should get some gummy bears to keep him going later. He's not a little kid anymore, but sure his love for candies never grows out of him.


The family is back in town. Erwin got me a concert DVD of Adele Live at The Royal Albert Hall. I'm so touched that he remembered to get me something from Jakarta. Thanks Erwin :) They brought back lots and lots of food. Baguette, crackers, bika ambon, all sorts of things.. I shall not indulge myself too much though. Must keep in shape. Wish me a better day today..

I let it fall, my heart 
And as it fell, you rose to claim it 
It was dark and I was over 
Until you kissed my lips and you save me 
My hands, they're strong 
But my knees were far too weak 
To stand in your arms, without falling to your feet

Rain Flower

It has been raining for the past few days. This afternoon was a huge one. The thunder and wind just went crazy. I hate thunder. It reminds me of bad things, bad times.


So yeah, the day hasn't been going that well for me. Today is Easter, but I missed the Easter Mass because I decided to woke up at 9.30am and after all the housework it was already 12 plus. The mass should be at 11am. I remember how Easter used to be such a feast back when I was in primary school. There would be an egg designing competition and egg hunting of course. I was good in art, but I guess egg wasn't the right canvas.. I suck at drawing on egg. LOL. Those were good times...


I spent my day at home today.. staring at the greyish sky. Occasionally went downstairs and search for food in the fridge. Did the housework little by little. Oh yea, Granny's going back to Singapore today. Probably she'll be back home at around 8.30 or 9pm. When she's away with my relatives, I stay at home with my Uncle. I guess the only thing I enjoy about having 2 people at home is the fact that no one will step on the clean floor, so I won't have to sweep or mop so often. What a reason, I know..


I was all emotional today.. mood swing, tissue paper still on my bed. I guess my room is the messiest part of the house right now. I tried to have a nap earlier, but couldn't. So I decided to do my nails. Been so long since the last time I did a nice one. Yb and Hs gave me this set of nail polish as birthday present and they are really pretty. I won't spend my money on expensive nail polish, so I was totally exhilarated to receive it. As for the stickers on my nails, they are also birthday present from my girls back in hometown. Apparently I am such a lucky girl, to have beautiful people around me.. who love me and know me well. Count your blessings, Nas.


Here is the final product after careful polishing and pasting...
I am so satisfied with the result, it looks like some wedding nails :)



And here are things that I used




Have a wonderful Easter everyone..
and don't forget to bring your umbrella out